Assignment 26-Celebrating Failure

This past semester, I failed many times. I am a CAP mentor here in the business school, and there was a couple times this semester that a mentee reached out to me, set up an appointment, and I failed to meet up with them. The students that this happened with were ones that repeatedly come to see me, so we had built a strong mentor-mentee relationship, which made this instance reflect even more poorly on me. I consider this a failure because it strays from the professionalism that I strive for each day on the job, and it gives others the idea that I am not punctual, don't care about my responsibilities, or am simply disorganized, all things that I wish not to be perceived as. From this, I learned that I need to start holding myself more accountable, especially when there are other parties involved who will also be affected by my actions. It made me realize that I need to get myself together because if something like this were to happen at a future job, it would be an even bigger problem and could result in lost clients, etc.

Personally, I am so afraid of failure that sometimes I won't even try certain things if there is a chance that I will fail at them. I think this really puts me in a box sometimes and doesn't allow me to get out of my comfort zone. I have trouble accepting failure, so I am very hard on myself at all times and it plays a role in what things I choose to venture out and do. I think that right now, I am definitely more likely to take a risk than I was a few months ago, so I am making progress in this arena.